The truest expression of a people is in its dance and in its music. Bodies never lie.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Another summer dayhas come and gone away

In Paris or Rome...

but I wanna go home...

uhm Home

may be surrounded by

a million people I

still feel all alone

just wanna go home

I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters

that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

I'm fine baby

how are you?

I would send them but I know that it's just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane, another sunny place,I'm lucky I know

but I wanna go home

I got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living

someone else's life

It's like I just stepped outside

when everything was going right

And I know just why you could not come along with me

This was not your dream

but you always believed in me...

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
baby I'm done
I gotta go home

Let me go home
it'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home...

jass' misses.

6:08 PM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

hello all(:

sorry for not blogging in such a long while. it's either i'm really busy or just lost the interest and feel to blog. i somehow just dont like technology. i dont like updating pple thru the laptop if you get what i mean. but it doesnt mean i dont miss u all ok.

but anyhows, since it's the only way i guess i will soon. maybe sometime next wk(: so kit!

loves
jas is tired.

12:09 AM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Sunday, September 2, 2007

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard I've learned the hard way,

to never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh

Every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry

Every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry In the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

1:04 PM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Friday, August 31, 2007

i'm super late once again, but jasmine's theory is this: it's always better to be late than never agree? anws,

HAPPY 42 SINGAPORE! U KNOW I LOVE U SO(:
MY WISH FOR U IS TO PROSPER
YEAR AFTER YEAR
TAKE THE GREAT LEAP
LEADING US FORWARD
WITH EACH PASSING DAY!
~ALL THE WAY~

the NAVY that i support always(:
half of me wish that our spore flag could just incoporate the beautiful purple colour but in any case, i love red and white too(:
our National Day potluck @ keith & nic's place(:

the menu for the night:

dawn's bak chor mee, anne's prata, the guys made teh tarik (i videoed the process :p), karen with her sweet and sour pork, gerald and kev cooked coconut rice (meant for nasi lemak) to combine w roast chicken forming the chicken rice (HAHA), curry, manrou and myself made potato salad & TIRAMISU! (mrs tan & liyi i was thinking of u thru the process)we stood up to sing the anthem and recite the pledge when the song played during the parade! haha and sarah spasticated! she raised the flag that steph brought back from singapore and so we recalled our flag raising ceremony days(: cool, i dont remember getting sick of flag raising when i was schooling in spore even it's every morning. it's just a routine, i wont say i once enjoyed but i'm currently missing it!

the colour theme for that night : RED & WHITE. wonderful midnight mahjong! jojo wz sc ys kennie more mahjongs eoy (:

my pancake frying skills are superb! see i even made the pinochio (spell?) head! can u hahaha i will keep trying until i get the purple elephant who is winnie the pooh's friend! :Dit's all about arm strength i swear to beat the eggs until it's so foam! we just a NON-electric beater which i borrowed from karen(: yayy self denial that i get a little workout b4 i indulge in the ever yummy tiramisu!it's good! the next time i will add blueberries into the tiramisu!
oh btw, liyi (i doubt mrs tan knows my blog anw) this tiramisu i used marsala instead of bailey's irish cream u know! apparently marsala is less concentrated so we add like 2 cups?? haha baileys' like 1 spoon right! but it still tasted good though i prefer baileys!

6:27 PM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Thursday, August 23, 2007

JASMINE LAU JINMING
hey girlfriend! cheer up kaes...times r hard but think of the rainbow and sunshine after the rain! u'll tide it through ^^ i promise or u're not jasmine ^^
missing you and always remember...you're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think ^^
u and i will make it through ^^
<3 ya
p.s come back soon! or perhaps i'll jus go look for u ><

i copied and pasted this from yann's blog! thanks honey. u r really doubletriplequadruply

SWEET &

u touched me once again!

but the sad thing is u got me tearing again...

JASLOVES HERMOSHII

3:41 PM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

i cant find the right words to describe how i've been feeling

it's just contrasting, mixed of emotions.

i put on my face mask every morning

acting strong on the outside

feeling the struggle deep inside

why am i doing these to myself...

i never think it's going to be worth it

honestly,

no matter what you say.

as many of you ve told me time and again,

i fully comprehend the words which say

"dont get emotionally attached, make the best out of whatever you have"

no difficulty in these simple words...

before the 7th july,

i would give myself the credit

for always being able to maintain

mind over heart

no matter the situation i face

no matter how emotionally-drawn others get

i do not recall myself being a slave to my emotions.

since my supposedly fav date in this lifetime (070707)

i am completely torn apart

mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

i cant explain it

i cant help it

i just lose myself

my mind refuses to work

i exert no control over my heart.

i start each day,

not as carefree

not as happy

not as light-hearted

as i used to be.

throughout the day,

i feel the pain

the struggle

the uneasiness

which makes me numb at the end.

i lead each and everyday this way

forcing myself to believe

that i will grow stronger,

just like what many others say...

i bottle up and suppress

all weaknesses in me

and when i lose myself in this battle,

my tears flow endlessly

and my heart aches.

to the person i love most-

i love you too much that i do not know how to hate you

instead, i hate myself for loving u.

12:15 AM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16

Of all the things

I've believed in

I just want to get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing

Are starting to get old

It feels like

I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend

And I said Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything that I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

But I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place whereI am blinded by the light

But it's not right

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything that I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want what's yours

And I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything that I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything that I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star

12:06 AM
you did not choose Me;
but i chose You:
john15:16